ISWG - June
The Insecure Writer's Support Group was created by Alex J. Cavanaugh as a place where writers can talk about their insecurities once a month, and receive encouragement and support from other writers.
I've had a few ups and downs this month. In last month's ISWG post, I was worried about the two assignments I had just handed in (on the 24th April). I got the results back for them this month, and I did well! I'm really pleased with the results - they aren't as high as my first Creative Writing assignment, but much higher than I used to get in undergraduate!
However, I also got another assignment back, and I didn't do as well as I had wanted on that one. It was life writing, so I had to write a biographical style piece about myself, and I really didn't like it! I guess it's not too big a surprise that I didn't do brilliantly on it. This got me down for a bit, but rather than making me want to give up, it spurred me on to work as hard as I could on my dissertation. This motivation was helped later by finding out about my other grades.
I've been struggling with my dissertation this month. I had an idea that I really wanted to do, but when I sat down to plan it, my brain went blank. I had the bare bones of the idea, but something seemed to be missing. I didn't like the plot I had come up with, I couldn't relate to my characters; in the end I dreaded sitting down to work on it. I had no passion for it at all.
So I decided to change my idea completely. I was worried about making this decision, since I'd already done so much research, but now that I've done it I'm glad I did. I have a couple more ideas; both involve short stories, revolving around a theme. I'm leaning towards one idea more than the other, and I'm really excited about it! I can't wait to get stuck in and start planning my stories. My characters aren't even fully formed, and I'm more passionate about them than I ever was for my other idea.
I'll probably tell you all more about it later on in the month, when I've got a little further in my planning :)